So.. as repetitive as this sounds, I made one more collage and the same topic came up: my addiction. Is hard to admit to myself that there is a need of using non-stop and that I lost control. So this is how it starts: blank cardboard, magazines, and random images that I keep in boxes. At the back of the desk, there’s a collage of … Continue reading Fumeta
Every time is the same feeling, knowing that I have an addiction and not being able to face it and do something about it. Another weekend passed, and I smoked, ate, slept, and did absolutely nothing, not even taking a shower or washing my face. Makes me feel disgusted. I feel like life is passing me by, and I’m not getting any younger. I will … Continue reading Are you able to stay clean?
By the end of 2020, I thought it was an amazing idea to grow my own cannabis. I bought the indoors kit and I enjoyed the process of growing my plants. Checking on them every day, having that commitment with them, was a special experience, as I saw them bloom. However, sometimes I asked myself whether this was the worst idea ever.I smoked in the … Continue reading My Somango
This post took literally a year to be written. The first part was written during 2021 when my job location and my daily routine was different. The second part was written during 2022, where many thing are different, but my addition has not changed. From November 2021 to September 2022 I stopped writing, no WordPress, not even logging in. I kept the basic free WordPress, … Continue reading Trying not to smoke today
So, I’m trying to be a bit creative with all the weed I got. I went through many online recipes about making cannabis oil and I ended trying on that seemed easy to start with. Mixing olive oil with Somango seemed like a good way to start. First, I weighed 5 gr of Cannabis and got a nice Eco olive oil. So I learned that … Continue reading Making cannabis-infused olive oil
The last time I posted something was April 11th. I just didn’t feel like sharing anymore. I lost interest completely, and this is something that has been happening to me for the last couple of years. I start something, I work hard for 1 to 3 months, then I turn the page and forget about it. However, I have to remind myself that when I … Continue reading WTF
I need stimulants all the time. If I´m very honest to myself, I take psychiatric medication in the morning, smoke cannabis every day, both CBD and THC, and drink lots of beverages with natural caffeine. For the last 10 years, I take 20 milligrams of Prozac in the morning. That was prescribed at the moment and it helps with other physical anxieties I have, but … Continue reading I am an addict?
I absolutely love my plants. Is a process that challenges me each day, but gives me so much satisfaction. My girls started to grow slowly. I placed them on top of the pots where I was going to transplant them later. I thought maybe the Led was too far away. Some of them started to die. Now I know all the things I was doing … Continue reading The evolution of my Cannabis Indoors
I really enjoy making a collage for friends. They choose their own images and I connect those images creating something new. One year ago, this pandemic started and I found myself with a lot of time in my hands. I have over 20 collages at home. I’ve been able to collect so many images coming from magazines, paper wraps, postcards, old photos, which is a … Continue reading I keep making personalized collages as birthday presents for good friends
I´m finally doing this! I bought the Cannabis kit on December 2020, and it took a while to set it up. My kit has a name by the way, Kitlandia. I´m starting with 10 Somango seeds. -It´s a cross between the Jack Herer and Big Skunk. -Indica-dominant hybrid. – 75% Indica / 25% Sativa. I never tried Somango before. Until very recently I would only … Continue reading First time growing indoors cannabis
There are different definitions of self-sabotage, but the one that impacted me the most was this one: “The act of destroying or damaging something deliberately so that it does not work correctly” That is how I feel about myself when it comes to relationships or getting involved emotionally with someone, I always fuck it up. There is something about my behavior that changes, and it … Continue reading Do you self-sabotage?
DECEMBER 14th 2020 After thinking about it for ever, I decided that I was going to finish 2020 with my cannabis kit. It took me a while to find the one I wanted and that I could afford. I finally placed the order. I received 3 big boxes, got everything out and got a bit worried as this was definitely out of my comfort zone. … Continue reading Figuring out how to set up my Cannabis Kit
Is very cold in Barcelona and we are in lockdown again. I used to feel guilty if I stayed in the whole weekend, but now I have the perfect excuse. This collage has been “on hold” for months, because from one collage, 2 more were created! First, I taped a piece of cardboard on the wall. This was recycle from the packaging from my protein … Continue reading Rainy freezing Saturday during a third lockdown
Of course, that when I’m not high I´m much faster and sharp, but overall I can manage to do anything. Don’t get me wrong, I don’t drive or put myself or others at risk. But I talk about the everyday routines, walks, cooking, cleaning, doing my collages, doing laundry. All those activities that you know by heart already. However, sometimes I wonder how much weed … Continue reading I´m a highly-functional smoker
Among other things that are new in my life, I’m also starting to grow my own indoors cannabis. I don’t know what the fuck I’m doing, every step forward takes longer cause I need to watch tutorials for everything. There are some accomplishments thought: I was able to set up the tent and set up the ventilation system by myself. Setting up the extractor was … Continue reading Kitlandia needs help
Why not? For me, is a perfect plan. I´m used to being alone, although I live with my cat and he is the best partner to be honest. I have always kept a distance between me and other people. I´m not attached to people, family or friends. I can easily live with a huge ocean in between us and not be upset about it. The … Continue reading Sunday Morning joint while wearing lingerie by myself at home