So.. as repetitive as this sounds, I made one more collage and the same topic came up: my addiction. Is hard to admit to myself that there is a need of using non-stop and that I lost control. So this is how it starts: blank cardboard, magazines, and random images that I keep in boxes. At the back of the desk, there’s a collage of … Continue reading Fumeta
When I made this collage many things were happening in my life. On one side, my company was moving outside of the city and that meant a huge change for me when it comes to my daily transportation. On the other side, my brother moved to Spain, to my apartment in Barcelona. At work we needed a extra hand, so I got him a job … Continue reading I´m building a fucking building
The last time I posted something was April 11th. I just didn’t feel like sharing anymore. I lost interest completely, and this is something that has been happening to me for the last couple of years. I start something, I work hard for 1 to 3 months, then I turn the page and forget about it. However, I have to remind myself that when I … Continue reading WTF
I need stimulants all the time. If I´m very honest to myself, I take psychiatric medication in the morning, smoke cannabis every day, both CBD and THC, and drink lots of beverages with natural caffeine. For the last 10 years, I take 20 milligrams of Prozac in the morning. That was prescribed at the moment and it helps with other physical anxieties I have, but … Continue reading I am an addict?
I absolutely love my plants. Is a process that challenges me each day, but gives me so much satisfaction. My girls started to grow slowly. I placed them on top of the pots where I was going to transplant them later. I thought maybe the Led was too far away. Some of them started to die. Now I know all the things I was doing … Continue reading The evolution of my Cannabis Indoors
I really enjoy making a collage for friends. They choose their own images and I connect those images creating something new. One year ago, this pandemic started and I found myself with a lot of time in my hands. I have over 20 collages at home. I’ve been able to collect so many images coming from magazines, paper wraps, postcards, old photos, which is a … Continue reading I keep making personalized collages as birthday presents for good friends
My last post was on Feb 10th and I have to admit the last couple of weeks were very difficult. I was very depressed, my feelings were all over the place. I would cry in the shower, I would cry in the morning, or even on the bus. It’s funny how as an adult, I can continue to work and live my life, without showing … Continue reading Hiding for a couple of weeks
There are different definitions of self-sabotage, but the one that impacted me the most was this one: “The act of destroying or damaging something deliberately so that it does not work correctly” That is how I feel about myself when it comes to relationships or getting involved emotionally with someone, I always fuck it up. There is something about my behavior that changes, and it … Continue reading Do you self-sabotage?
I think about Chip often, and I ask myself if maybe I overreacted. The thing is that he made me feel upset. I needed something from someone who couldn´t give me more or didn´t want to. I´m always telling my friends to surround themselves with people who have a positive effect on their lives. Sometimes we need to listen to ourselves when we advise others. … Continue reading What if…?
First, I had Netflix for a couple of years until I was bored of it. Then I subscribed for the free trial for HBO, and after the first month, I decided to keep it. During 2020 and the Covid surprise, I ended up having both at the same time. Last December, I was trying to save money as well as using my time in a … Continue reading Netflix, HBO or Amazon Video Prime?
This month was full of ups and downs, emotionally speaking.We are very busy at work, but the moving of location is not fully confirmed yet, and we can all feel the stress in the air. We are still closed to the students and continue the online lessons until Feb 7th. However, it looks like a lockdown is coming, Covid cases in Spain continue to increase. … Continue reading The Ups and Downs of January 2021
If you check out this post https://lacatalove.com/2021/01/21/man-can-easily-give-me-a-fucking-headache/ , I was upset about this guy’s behavior, and I made the conscious decision to let him go. Instead of feeling sorry for myself, because one more time I got attracted to the wrong guy, I put all those emotions into a collage. Step 1: First I found a big piece of hard material that I have been … Continue reading Using your disappointment in a creative way
I´m always asking myself this type of question. I was depressed for many years and it was difficult to enjoy life in general. Now that I´m older, I found many tools that help me appreciate life and I don´t feel depressed anymore. However, I´m always analyzing my behavior, is like constantly checking for red flags, in case that feeling becomes overwhelming again. So whenever something … Continue reading Why do we do the things we do?
I liked this guy, but he is too complicated and he is giving me a headache. I don´t quite understand his behavior, but is definitely passive aggressive. He doesn´t say no to see me, but he is always too busy to arrange a day and makes sure to emphasize how little important I ‘am. If you want to see someone, you make the time for … Continue reading Man can easily give me a fucking headache
I’m talking about something very specific, our friend who visits us every month. Each time is different, some months I don’t have any pain, my emotions are in place and some months is a Greek tragedy. January feels that way. The physical pain is bearable, but my emotions are out of balance. I feel like nothing makes sense and is really hard to leave my … Continue reading It’s difficult being a woman
So today I was going back to work after the Christmas holidays. I was having mix feelings. On one hand I was happy to go back, but on the other hand I was feeling super lazy. Is very cold in Barcelona. Who doesn’t love staying in bed in winter? This is the first time ever I have a part time job and I’m definitely underpay. … Continue reading Starting 2021
I never wanted to tell my parents I was molested when I was a child. I tried to protect them from the pain. A therapist once asked me: “Who was protecting young Cata love when the abuse was happening?”. I was the child and they were the adults. She said I kept inverting the roles. I kept it as a secret for so many years. … Continue reading Blogging is saving me thousands on therapy
No idea how this year will be. Is a different world and my life is different as well. It will take a while until we go back to the “normal life” , but what if that life never comes back? Before the pandemic I always had this feeling that something was going to happen. The world was becoming more and more fucked up, it was … Continue reading Welcome 2021
It was 2011, after being heartbroken, I was too emotionally drained to pack my bags and leave again. So I stayed in my home country for a year and a half. I rented an apartment in Palermo, Buenos Aires with one of my best friends. He was gay and called me “his marida”. I worked for almost a year in an HR job and things … Continue reading The time I had a gun pointed at my head and I was still fired from the fucking Coffee Chain
Young Cata love was raised in Argentina, a country that is well-known for its high-quality meat. I loved eating meat, the taste, the texture, the barbecue experience with your friends and family. It wasn´t something that I planned or even picture for myself. It was something that happened throughout my life experiences, my travelling, and my own personal need to contribute to a better world. … Continue reading My vegan journey
Today is December 25th of 2020. Due to Covid 19, for the last couple of months we have a mandatory lockdown from 10pm to 6am. Yesterday it was December 24th and the government allowed us to be back at 1am. I always spent Christmas with my Spanish family, but this year I spent it with friends. I cooked a very nice vegan dinner: seitan with … Continue reading Barcelona has changed…
This year has been different for sure, not just for me, but for the world. I finished 2019 with hopes that 2020 would be better, and I’m not sure how I feel about it. For many people it has been a nightmare, lost of families and friends, lost of their business, and the lost of hope in general. For me it has been different, but … Continue reading Christmas day 2020
I´m 39 years old and I do not need human babies in my life. Don´t get me wrong, I love kids, they are cute, innocent, fun, but I don´t need to have one of my own. I look at my cat and he gives me all the love I need. Is difficult to understand why some women think that the only way of being complete … Continue reading What if my cat satisfies my maternal instinct?
Why not? For me, is a perfect plan. I´m used to being alone, although I live with my cat and he is the best partner to be honest. I have always kept a distance between me and other people. I´m not attached to people, family or friends. I can easily live with a huge ocean in between us and not be upset about it. The … Continue reading Sunday Morning joint while wearing lingerie by myself at home
Back on 2003-2004, I was young and I wanted to travel really bad. I come from a country where the local currency is shit, so travelling around the world was a difficult dream to accomplish. I was going through a difficult time and I was very depressed. I saw a psychiatrist who put me on heavy medication right away. It didn´t feel right. Medication didn´t … Continue reading The time I got a job at a ski resort without never seeing snow in my life.
If you ask me a number, I have no fucking idea. I tried once to make a list, but I had so many one night stands that I lost track. Alcohol was heavily involved and sex was mediocre, so does this even count? Of course it does, but it goes straight to the “black list of fucks”. People might ask: If you were molested as … Continue reading What if I don’t know how many guys I fucked
For many years, I went out partying, drunk tons and fast and I would black-out completely. The fucked-up thing was that I would be dancing, talking, fucking, and doing who knows what else, but on a conscious mental level I did not know what I was doing. I think it was back in 2007. I was working abroad, I recently broke up with my ex … Continue reading The night I got fucked up in Lake Tahoe